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16 November 2008 @ 04:23 pm
gamble everything for love  
my entire body is stiff and refuses to work the way i tell it to, i can't tell if it's my eyes that are foggy or just my glasses, and there is champagne in my hair. another weekend nearly over and i wonder what happened to getting a couple days of rest after another awful week. because that's what i always plan but rarely how it goes. i don't even know why my weeks are so awful. when i think about it, nothing that bad ever happens, everything is just wearing me down, on all sides, in all ways. and i really just want to take a break but i'm afraid that if i do i will lose whatever it is that's keeping me going.

i have a crush on a boy in my math class and i kind of wish i didn't. i don't want to deal with feelings.
Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: ben lee
invadent on November 17th, 2008 05:27 pm (UTC)
crushes are glorious torture
Samcrazy_clari_27 on November 17th, 2008 07:10 pm (UTC)
Indeed. Mine kind of got rid of me so I guess I don't have to think about him anymore.

YES for doing away with feelings!
capricia85capricia85 on November 18th, 2008 05:51 am (UTC)
Hmmmm, Christmas break is coming soon...in like a month....if you can stick it out that long. Just don't tell anyone where you are going or what you are doing and hide in a little corner, and just sleep, drink some herbal tea, relax! Think....Mr. Badger in Wind In The Willows, when is isn't intensly angry, and is all hibernating and stuff....I bet he drinks herbal tea with honey in it....yuuuuummmmmm! :D
(Anonymous) on December 3rd, 2008 04:20 pm (UTC)
"gamble everything for love", huh? Big words for someone who only a few entries ago was talking about how they'd rather have casual sex than an actual relationship. Seems a little contradictive to your ethos, doesn't it?