i guess some of us have run out of criticisms and it's back to calling me fat. and i have nothing to say that my readers haven't already said. i expected more.

i logged into diaryland today, for old time's sake, and i was surprised to see that someone had updated, because no one really writes there anymore, and all she said was that she misses her old diaryland friends. and i agreed. there was a time when i had better relationships through online diaries than i did with anyone i knew outside of the internet. and i miss those people. they were beautiful. i have not lost all of them, and i have this urge to reconnect, to remember that closeness.

i need to plan my schedule for next semester. and i am going to try to do a lot less than i'm doing now because this is ripping my head apart. but i don't know what i can afford to quit.

i wish i had time to just not think about anything for a while.